tick tick... boom

I'm just getting home from tick tick... boom performed by my wonderful friends at 11th Hour theatre company. It was a really beautiful evening.
It has been hard doing so much this semester. I'm at a point of great confusion where i'm not sure what direction i have to take. It is a little bit confusing. I am currently living my dream of dreams and I'm just not certain what my current road block is from letting me succeed 100%.
It may be because I have not been doing the other things that keep my process happy.
I have not been to a yoga class in some time and i have only been making it to the gym about once week. Many of my days have been spent being hidden in my room doing nothing- or atleast nothing productive. It is tricky to balance. So often when i'm afraid of something I run away from it instead of facing it.
I can't focus on one task and run away from the tasks the i actually care about.

But Tick Tick... Boom helped my focus on one thing for a beautiful 90minute piece of theatre. It was performed by three actors that i love and have a lot of respect for. They helped take me to a special place that I haven't been to in a while. even with doing this amazing show that I'm working on. the director, music director, and designers helped create a world of love and creativity that I was invited to be apart of. It was a musical that really brought a lot of joy to me and that sure is great!

I'm trying to have a better energy flow to my life... still trying to figure out the energy blocks that are affecting me negatively. Quite a process.